answered prayers, sleep, happiness

Thank you everyone for all of your prayers for Samantha. Today we have been praying throughout the whole day. Samantha's surgery got delayed several times. Her Father called me at 10:15 tonight and Samantha had just gotten out of surgery and seemed to be doing ok. They were giving her sedatives to keep her calm and she will be in ICU for at least a day. At this point she is good. They do not know if this was a temporary fix or a permanant.

I broke down at one point after I talked to her mom. She was telling me how Samantha kept asking for 5 more minutes, just 5 more, before they put her under. She wanted to make sure she was able to tell everyone good bye, she had to get all of her good byes in. Her mom said she was sooo scared. Can you imagine being a 12 year old and going in for brain surgery several times before you even became a teenager? I can't.

The one thing that I have been thankful, overwhelmed by and in awe of, is God's response to prayers. This week I have just been giving Him more of me than I had been. Maybe I am most in awe because I know God answers prayers, but I guess I havne't always seen them as bluntly as I feel like He answered them. Is that hard for anyone else? To discern how God is answering your prayers? I am a very abstract thinker and my brain sometimes gets kinda out there, but when it comes to my life and what I am suppose to be doing and when it comes to prayers, I need black and white answers, I at times lack the confidence that I am discerning something correctly.

I am so thankful for the prayers that have been answered.

I haven't been sleeping well for the past few days. For those of you who know me well, you know that falling asleep is not generally a problem for me! You also know that once I am out, I am OUT.... God bless my friends and roommates who have lived through my alarms! :)

Last night I woke up ever hour and a half to two hours. I can't think of too many things more annoying for me. Well, maybe just a couple :) Every time I woke up I thought about 3 different things. One was Samantha and another one was the baseball clinic. I had nightmares about the clinic and I was just worried about Samantha. I didn't have the greatest feelings about it all.

I worked from 8AM to 6PM on the Clinic today, then I was up at church for another several hours for the musical (great job... it was awesome!) all in all 15 hours at St. Peter. I am exhausted but I can't get my mind to stop racing. I am not normally like this, I can normally leave things be. This clinic just has me all in a tizzy. I was making phone calls and would have to stop mid sentence to write down something i forgot to do or needed to make sure was at church. This is a huge outreach event and the first time the River Cats have done something quite like this. I know it will be fine. I am expected about 100 kids very possible to be over 100! WOAH! Do we have enough t-shirts? Do the signs make sense? Do I have thank you's for the people that helped put this together? Is there enough help? Did I freeze the sponges for the first aid kit? Do we have too much time? Not enough? Will the River Cats be ok with how we set this up? MAKE IT STOP! :)

Happiness is in the title because I really am so happy. I am so happy the clinic is happening, I am so happy for amazing answers to so many different prayers... some big, some big to me, some not so big, but happy because our God is Love, he is Good, He is amazing.

On that Happy note.... I need to go to bed... 5:45 is going to come real early!

Sweet dreams!