body building?

Ok so I was at the gym the other night... which if you haven't learned this by now... from now until decemeber my life is very split between work and the gym with very little time at home.... I know its going to pay off... it better... :) Anyway. I thought I would be seeing a few more results than I have been by now, but my trainer insists that he sees them and was very encouraging.

So I got a little laugh out of the whole thing the other night though. When I work with my trainer... I work real hard... like its a real good and painful workout (as it should be right). Anyway we were up at the desk after I trained that night and he was complimenting my dedication and motivation to make drastic changes in my body and life. So we talked a bit... and he said that once I get to a certain point, that I have the motivation and dedication it takes to be an amature body builder. I laughed pretty hard at first... until I realized that he wasn't joking. He said not to worry about it right now, but its something that I may want to think about for the future and if that is something I wanted to do he would train me for free and go with me to these competitions....

Who knows what the future will hold with anything. I guess what I do have to say I got out of it... is it feels really good to know someone believes in you. It all got me thinking... My dream would be to be a motivational speaker someday... I don't know exactly what I would use to motivate... but this whole training thing has me thinking that I may be able to use it... maybe the speaking thing won't ever happen beyond with my junior highers and children's messages.... maybe it will....


My relationship with Christ could be so much stronger right now, but I also know that I am seeing Christ work even through the littlest things and teaching me so much. Whether from conversations I have from people, experiences like working out and wakeboarding, or just seeing other people living out their faith. I think we all ought to take some time out to really figure out who we are... who's we are.... and believe in ourselves as the Child of God that we were made to be. God believes in us...He made us and has a plan for us...

I believe in you. I just want to encourage you to reach for your dreams and goals and to not be discouraged with set backs and getting a little lost on the trail. Your "trainer" is with you the whole time and is protecting you and guiding you through life changing processes. There are times that I am scared at the gym. Scared that my body is going to give out or that I won't be able to go on. Scared that I am going to look at a pansy when I can only life 15 pounds on something and then some dude gets on the machine and puts 90-180 pounds on it... As Morris (that's my trainers name) says... "Come on Champ... you can do it..." Sometimes he has to help me lift a weight. Sometimes I have to get off the machine so he can show me the proper posture for it. Sometimes I can only get 8 instead of 10 reps. There is one night at the gym that really sticks out. My friend Katy and I and Morris were the only ones in the gym... and it was a very painful night... i wasn't afraid to let it all out.... I had just done a fair share of cardio and was hurting, I had been wake boarding that day and my legs were shot. He put me straight onto the squat machine. I thought I was going to cry. It hurt so bad and my legs were shaking after the first couple squats. I kept yelling at him that I was going to fall... he kept saying back go lower... go lower... I continued to yell I can't I am going to fall. Then he reminded me that he was right next to me, he was holding onto the machine and he wouldn't let me fall.... I have confidence that if I started to go down he would catch me... he would encourage me and help me and teach me something from it. God does the same for us. he is our trainer... he is our guidance, he is our encourage... he picks us up or catches us when we fall... we learn, he continues to love and support.... beyond the the squat machine I had like 8 other leg machines that I had to do at least 2 times each. It hurt, it was work... my legs were gone for the next 5 days! But I am stronger now.

Just some thoughts I had... hope it makes sense... I have gotten a lot stronger and I am already lifting more on the machines... though I am not a fan of the squats I can get through it... he still watches me on the machine but he doesn't have to hold it anymore... well maybe the 3rd set of 12 he does.... but we grow stronger through the encouragement and support of others... especially God... Are you willing to let Him train you?

Have a great day!

What? Don't all DCE's walk on water?

or maybe I am loosing the faith here... hmmm.... tough call.

I love the Wagner's!

So this weekend I went to Felton, CA aka Santa Cruz Mountains! I love going there! I went to help some friends out with the added bonus of getting to hang out with them for a couple of days. Mindi and Tyler had a wedding to go to so I watched their 4 year old twin boys all day and evening Saturday. The boys and I had a blast. We went to Burger King, the park, got ninja turtle popsicles, went through the car wash (their favorite part of the day), went for a hike, baked cookies and of course wrastled! The smiles, laughter, imagination, innocence, and creativity of a 4 year old puts me in awe.

On Sunday we took it slow. Mindi and I took the 3 boys (they also have a 3 month old) to the train park. We did a lot of walking, had a picnic and just enjoyed the beautiful day.

Monday Mindi donated her hair to locks of love. Her hair is so cute and a little sassy right now. I love it. We played around at camp and went swimming. Mindi and Tyler and I had a few races, I think we each successfully won at least one of them. Meanwhile the boys tried to dunk us and we had fun listening to them laugh as we through them up in the air and into the water.

I just love hanging out with them and just going with the flow of life. I have some pictures of the twins, Mindi and I forgot to exchange pictures... she has a lot more I will post later.

wakeboarding

So I have gone wakeboarding the last two Sunday's. I will have pictures.... even video footage soon, so hold on tight.

I really enjoy wakeboarding, I don't know why. I think it is the thrill of doing something I didn't think I could do. Maybe it's the idea of the water, or just the amount of fun it is. What is so cool, is once you get up on the wakeboard, you can constantly improve what you do. I had only been about 3 times and decided I needed to start jumping. Some people would do this right away, however I am a gradual kind of girl. Once I started jumping I could improve what I was doing, or try to jump higher.

All in all I think wakeboarding has put some sort of a confidence in me, it has made me feel even more alive (especially when I crash and burn and get a Delta Wedgie or drink half the delta). Last night my friend Kathy and I went from their ski boat to an actual wakeboarding boat. Looking back its kinda like life back there. I was feeling pretty comfy behind their boat with Kathy's husband Nate driving and not too intimidated because they have seen my improvements. Next thing I know I am on this heavy duty awesome boat with 3 people who were attempting flips!!! I was being pulled faster than I had ever gone... like at 20mph and I didn't know the guy....i watched him pull others, but I didn't know him from Adam. The wake on this boat is much higher than what I am used to. So I am going from this amazing smooth water outside the wake, that is so fun to ride on to cutting straight in to this huge wake and not knowing if I am going to go flying and land it or have a WIPE OUT moment.

Do you ever feel like that in life. I know I do. I like the smooth easy going and the wake, the high stuff, the unknown, looks questionable. You don't know if you really want to go through it or not. So many times, once you do you realize a few things. First you realize that once you did it, it wouldn't be as hard the next time, or that actually it was kind of fun, or you may realize that if you fall, the boat will come back and pick you up, just like Christ is continually picking us up, or the friends that we have, our family.

I love wakeboarding. I don't know if I will ever be awesome at it, but I know I will always have fun with it. I will be challenged in some way every time I am behind that boat, I will get over some kind of fear each time I get up, and I will laugh, scream, or have a look of "OH NO" on my face and every part of it will be worth it!!