I am amazed by God. I mean really amazed by Him, by His protection and His guidance, by His knowing His children so well and surrounding them. With out going into a lot of detail, I was just alerted of a time in my life that God was protecting me in so many ways and I had no idea until last night how much I was being protected. He just surrounded me with His love, He used a tough time in my life to protect me from a tough time becoming unbearable.
I lost all my respect and trust for someone that I used to respect and trust more than most people.(please don't worry about who it is or anything....and no it isn't a family member...who it is, is important to me but in life this lesson is important no matter what) This isn't something I am proud of, it isn't even something that I am real comfortable writing in my blog, but I need to. I don't like the way I feel when I can't trust someone, I don't like what I feel when trust has been abused.
I learned a lot of lessons in the past 18 hours. The most important one to me though, was that your relationship with Christ can't ever be close enough. Another one that I learned is that God's timing is amazing. He knows us so well, he cares for his children and He is bigger than all of us put together. Another one that I learned is that people wear masks, but not to be skeptical that everyone has that mask on or that everyone is out to get you. We are sinful, we are far from perfect but that doesn't mean that everyone that you come in contact with has their own agenda.
I was tossing and turning last night, unable to sleep, maybe because I was processing so much, maybe because I took a phatty nap yesterday... but it felt so good to fall asleep talking to the only one who loves me and you sooo much that he would send his son to die for all people!
Know who you are. Know who's you are. Know God, love God, Let God guide you, Let God put His arms of protection around you!
5 comments:
It is truly amazing how God uses the "bad stuff" to help us learn, grow closer to Him, and use the experience in ways we can never fully understand. Sorry you had a rough time. I shall pass on the very wise words of my Grammie. They have yet to fail me.
"Love many, trust few, and always paddle your own cannoe!" (You do an excellent job of the last one!)
And Melly, I love you like a Texan loves Texas! Yeah, top that Kendra! :)
Thank you Mel...I know that you are going to be alright...you summed it up for all of us. You are amazing and God is amazing.
ok...I know I'm going to win this one lisser because
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN A PINE TREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
: )
Hey girl,
One of the most difficult experiences we can face is watching somebody we trust and respect, abuse it. You are right, people wear masks, but you can't live your life afraid of what they may be hiding under those masks. You know there is always one that you can put your trust in, and he won't abuse it ever, not even by accident. God's a pretty cool dude. It sounds like you have dealt with a difficult situation very well, your in my prayers.
As for the who loves you more thing, for once I think I will take a back seat (no smart alec comments).
Drop me an e-mail sometime....
Well, I'm not one for taking a back seat, but I'll call a truce w/ sypedawg! Let's just say we both think Melly is super cool. Cheetahs and Texans are like apples and oranges, unless you are comparing the swiftness of their feet to the swiftness of our minds. Then that would be a valid comparison. ;)
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