Well the realization of life has set in a little more. The crazy Christmas season is over, we are making major plans for the wedding and our life together forever is coming... not as soon as we would like but hopefully it will seem like it. The joke of eloping comes up oh... every other day... we are excited to be under one roof all the time.
I'm home sick today, Mike is out of town.. pretty much for the next three weeks, coming home for the weekends. It's hard for us to be away from each other. His mom started a new job so she can't get the kids to daycare in the morning, so while Mike is gone I'm staying with the kids being mom. I have been mom to them for quite a while, but sometimes it sets in a little more with different things. I am getting a taste of what I put my mom through and for that, I am truly sorry mom. I'm quite thankful I work with kids and junior highers to give be a bit understanding on emotions and changes and needs and wants. It sometimes feels like a 1000 piece puzzle with all black pieces but other times I understand the complete joy that comes with parenting.
I think I'm getting it down more and more each day. We are making lunches together, picked out clothes for the whole week, getting some homework done early, trying our best to keep back packs organized and getting family time in. We also have our dinners all picked out for the week. I think we are going to be just fine. Now if the kids and I can get the house cleaned and if I can for once conquer the laundry by Friday I think we can find this week a true Victory.
Well I'm off to get the kids from day care!
1 comment:
I am sorry you are sick...you didn't sound very good last night (in addition to the slight sobbing because you miss Mike)! Do not sell yourself short, you will make a great mom and are already doing a great job. You are filling some big shoes, but you are where you should be! God had a plan and this is it! No need to apologize for you actions as a kid...we all do silly things at those ages and then we grow up. You are a wonderful woman and Nathan and Aliyah are very fortunate to have you as their "mom"! I know you must be very overwhelmed at times, take a deep breath, but the two of you need to get over the eloping idea, because we are looking forward to a beautiful, fun wedding! YOU CAN DO IT! Love you much, mom
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